The truth about me is that there are days when all I want to do is scream and cry and throat punch somebody. There are times when I just don't want to feel happy because right now I am not happy and I am stressed beyond the breaking point. There are days when I am unclear about what my purpose is and I am too scared to figure it all out. There are days when I look heavenward and cock an eyebrow and ask "wtf are you thinking God!!?!?" There are days when all I really want to do is have a good old fashioned temper tantrum right here in the middle of the my living room.......life has not been fair and sometimes not even fun. Sometimes no matter what spin you put in "it" it still ends up smelling like the shit it really is.
But here's the thing, every single day I have to chose happiness over sadness and depression. Every single day I have to chose to smile rather then walk through my day with my "resting bitch face". Every single day I have to chose to be fierce, fearless and brave. I have come to realize the more I chose to be those things, "fake it till you make it" type thing, the more I actually BEcome those things. When I wake up and take stock of my day I can either cringe and complain or I can breathe deeply, count my blessings and become comfortable with the concept that whatever happens, its all good, even when it's bad, and I am bigger than any problem I might face and stronger than I remember and wiser today then I was yesterday. The alternatives to rhis are sadness, fear, depression, timidness, and over all a loss, a missed moment.
Life is a series of moments and you have to be ready for them. You simply cannot hide from them always making excuses. I don't care what dilemma you face, you have to consciously chose to be bigger that that dilemma. Complaining about life, the wrongs done to you by others, the feeble wishes that "if only I ________(fill in the blank) " does not change a thing. The Universe is always and I do mean ALWAYS conspiring for you. It does not know the difference between your good thoughts or your bad thoughts and whatever you put emotion behind, good or bad, the Universe puts into motion the things, people and places that are necessary to give it to you....."Your wish is my command". When you fully understand this it makes it a million times easier to pad your account with the good stuff. We ALL have the power to change regardless of the variety of circumstances. If you want change in your life you simply must BE the change--it starts with you. And on those days when you want to quit because "it's too hard" or "you just don't know what it's like to...." or the million reasons or excuses to justify quitting, THAT it when you have to dig deep and say YES to life, to accept that you might be scared shitless, that you might feel uncertain, lost and maybe lonely. When you live life fully accepting the wind in your hair- white knuckle-what the hell do I do now adventures of life, things get soooo much easier.
Try it--you'll like it!
~Namaste
